Art of the Divine Feminine

Posts made in January, 2013

For Jessica, on the occasion of her 29th birthday

Posted by on Jan 26, 2013 in Goddesslicious | 0 comments

Dear Jess, I”ll just say this straight:  I had no idea what I was doing when you were born. I had a book — Your Baby and Child, by Penelope Leach (your father always pronounced it Pen-lope, so in my head I hear her name that way, poor lady). And I had a lot of desire. You were wanted. Very wanted. Have you ever seen the episode of I Love Lucy where Lucy is pregnant and tries to tell Ricky but he’s too busy to listen so she goes down to the club where he works and he figures it...

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My six-month cancerversary looms; what should I get myself?

Posted by on Jan 23, 2013 in Cancer Goddess | 8 comments

I awoke this morning feeling angry and scared. Six months of yuck, I thought. Six months of my life being … what IS my life anyway? I woke up and felt pain and tiredness, and remembered that this is how I’ve awakened every day now for nearly six months. My cancerversary is this weekend. Six months. I need a new gig. This Cancer Chick thing is getting old. I can’t seem to wish it away, and I know that wishing things away doesn’t work anyway. What is that saying? What...

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Some good news, and a long road ahead

Posted by on Jan 16, 2013 in Cancer Goddess | 12 comments

This past Monday I had new scans. (Wait. Do I hear myself here? I’m talking cancerspeak. “New scans.” Ugh. Okay, here we go.) I had a new MRI, to look inside my pretty brain. And I had a new CT scan, to look at my bodacious bod, or at least the weird lumpy parts inside it. Scan Day was long and involved two hospitals, a doctor visit, a ton of waiting on dubiously-clean chairs, two IVs, and a lot of walking down halls. My beloved was at my side the whole time, no easy feat...

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For Serena, on the occasion of her 13th birthday

Posted by on Jan 15, 2013 in Goddesslicious, Non-Custodial Mothering | 1 comment

Dear Sweetcake, Have I ever told you the story of your birth? You were incredibly wanted. When your older brother Nathaniel was about two and a half, I started thinking about the age gap between me and MY older brother, which I had always thought was optimal (probably because that’s what Grandma and Grandpa told me): two and a half years. I wanted Nathaniel to have a sibling close in age since your older sister Jessica was an only child for nearly 12 years until Nathaniel came along and...

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Crossing fingers and toes

Posted by on Jan 13, 2013 in Cancer Goddess | 12 comments

Hi, kittens. Have I told you lately how much I appreciate you? No? Well, then. I adore you. And I am very glad you’re on this journey with me. It makes all the difference to me. New scans tomorrow Tomorrow (Monday January 14) I am having new scans. Why? Well, I’ll have scans every few months for a couple of years at least. Once cancer metastasizes it crops up anywhere. One doctor characterized it as whacking cockroaches with a shoe. You keep whacking cockroaches and new ones keep...

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