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Cancer Goddess Rises Day 3, The Luckiest

In 2006, I played one particular song over and over on my iPod. I played it and cried, wanting to dive into the song and make it my life. I wanted to feel so right, so wanted, so wanting — all the things the song meant to me then. After 2006 I stopped listening. I moved on. Other music, other desires, replaced that song in my playlist.

Today I scanned  iTunes, looking for something to plug into while I wrote. Soulmate sat across from me on the robin’s egg blue sofa. We found that when we write, we get more written if I plug headphones in and tune him out. I could easily sit next to him all day holding his hand and sending love into his eyes but not much gets done when we do that. I put out a call on Facebook for healing and soothing music. Loved the responses! My amazing and talented friend Jeremiah IM’d me two pieces he had composed. I think he read my mind, they were so perfect for what I wanted. And while I was waiting for my Facebook family to step up (they always do), I found this, the song from 2006:

The Luckiest

I don’t get many things right the first time

In fact, I am told that a lot

Now I know all the wrong turns

The stumbles and falls brought me here

 

And where was I before the day

That I first saw your lovely face?

Now I see it everyday

And I know that I am

I am, I am the luckiest

 

What if I’d been born fifty years before you

In a house on the street where you live?

Maybe I’d be outside as you passed on your bike

Would I know?

 

And in a wide sea of eyes

I see one pair that I recognize

And I know that I am

I am, I am the luckiest

 

I love you more than I have

Ever found a way to say to you

 

Next door, there’s an old man who lived to his 90’s

And one day, passed away in his sleep

And his wife, she stayed for a couple of days

And passed away

 

I’m sorry, I know that’s a strange way

To tell you that I know we belong

That I know that I am

I am, I am the luckiest

 

And I listened to the song again. Three times. I was going to write today about my appalling lack of organizational skills and the fact that I am freaking out because dammit, EVERYTHING has changed this week and I am trying hard to keep up, but you know what? I think it’s better for me to stay in the zone of The Luckiest. I have so much! I have a good life. I have so much love. I have this amazing man who has become my champion in a way no one ever has. I am, I am the luckiest.

P.S. The YouTube selection for The Luckiest is pathetic. Try this one. The song’s by Ben Folds.

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  1. Laura

    You’re wonderful. And, you will win in all the ways that truly matter.

    Thank you for sharing who you are.

  2. Karen Smith

    Talyaa…This song touched my Heart…as I know it does yours. I admire your beautiful *Goddess Spirit* which comes through in your *Sweet Smile*… and your * Positive Uplifting Thoughts* that you share each day. With *Faith Hope and Love* I know your body will be filled with *Light and Healing Energy*. You are in my Prayers and I believe You will be Blessed with many Miracles in your Life. Your Goddess Friend…Karen

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