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Cancer Goddess

Another Day, Another Doctor

Posted by on Dec 20, 2014 in Cancer Goddess, Cancer Healing, Goddesslicious | 0 comments

[In one week I had four appointments with four different doctors about my brain tumors. I'm almost a celebrity! This is what I wrote early last week.]   Today’s doctor was a highly regarded oncologist, I think a melanoma specialist. He seemed both a pragmatist and a skeptic, which for my purposes means he’s constantly looking at things from the lens of what will work, versus “what we’ve always done” or “I don’t have anything useful to offer you,...

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Brain MRI Results. Dammit.

Posted by on Dec 3, 2014 in Best of The Goddess, Cancer Goddess, Cancer Healing, Goddesslicious | 4 comments

Six weeks ago there was a badass biggish tumor and a wee little one. Now, not only did the two tumors NOT reduce in size, but the biggish one is more defined than six weeks ago. And they are joined by a third tumor that just popped up — also pretty big — since six weeks ago. Tumor party!

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The Marshmallow Test, Life, and Cancer

Posted by on Oct 21, 2014 in Cancer Goddess, Cancer Healing, Goddesslicious | 5 comments

Hello my lovelies, I’m on my way this week to the hospital for a brain MRI. Today is Day Twelve of a massive headache that won’t go away no matter what pain medicine I throw at it, and this is a very bad sign for someone who’s had brain tumors. Couple the headache with other signs I’m experiencing and there is, ahem, strong concern  — one level below freak-out mode. This was probably preventable. My Kahuna and I know what to do and how to do it to get through cancer....

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How I Found Freedom

Posted by on Sep 26, 2014 in Cancer Goddess, Magic | 0 comments

What happens when we resist our Truth? The past several weeks I’ve been in a deep soul process. Well, to be more exact, I’ve been resisting a call to a deep soul process. Resisting, for me in this case, looks and feels a lot like depression. Very little felt good except the things I know always feel good to me: movement/dance and connection/community. I stopped painting. This was a mistake. By stopping painting I denied an essential part of myself, like cutting off an arm. Or my...

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One Eleven

Posted by on Sep 15, 2014 in Cancer Goddess, Cancer Healing | 0 comments

After cancer hit more than two years ago, my relationship with scales and weighing took on a whole new dimension. It got very simple. Losing weight = death. Gaining weight = health. I gave up the option to worry about weight or what my body looked like, because I was fighting for my life.

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Two Years to Tango

Posted by on Aug 27, 2014 in Cancer Goddess, What Cancer Feels Like | 0 comments

These shoes became emblematic of my will to live. I was gonna say Eff You to cancer and learn to dance tango IF IT KILLED ME. Even though by the time I got the shoes, I barely had the strength to stand more than a couple of minutes, let alone dance on 3.5 inch stiletto heels.

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