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A Visit With the Neurosurgeon

Posted by on Dec 22, 2014 in Cancer Goddess, Cancer Healing, Goddesslicious | 0 comments

[About two weeks ago I saw a neurosurgeon about my brain tumors. This is what I wrote that day.]   Hello chickadees! First things first. Surgery is a definite. Everyone agrees. But what kind? Turns out there are choices. Who knew? A. Old-fashioned craniotomy. A huge-ass incision (5-6 inches) across the front part of the top of my head after shaving my hair. Removing parts of my skull, including my left eyebrow bone, to expose the brain and cut the tumor out. Risk of infection. Risk of...

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Another Day, Another Doctor

Posted by on Dec 20, 2014 in Cancer Goddess, Cancer Healing, Goddesslicious | 0 comments

[In one week I had four appointments with four different doctors about my brain tumors. I'm almost a celebrity! This is what I wrote early last week.]   Today’s doctor was a highly regarded oncologist, I think a melanoma specialist. He seemed both a pragmatist and a skeptic, which for my purposes means he’s constantly looking at things from the lens of what will work, versus “what we’ve always done” or “I don’t have anything useful to offer you,...

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Happy Birthday to My Nineteen Year Old Son

Posted by on Dec 19, 2014 in Goddesslicious, Non-Custodial Mothering | 0 comments

Dear Nineteen, A year ago I wrote you a public letter containing all the things I could think of that an 18 year old man would need to know to get a good start in adult life. I thought of you then as a boy becoming a man. I imagined myself the wise elder, dispensing sage advice. That makes me laugh now. I don’t know when for sure that it happened, this shift in how I see you. Maybe it was in August when you visited and we were together for the first time in two years and you stood as a...

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Brain MRI Results. Dammit.

Posted by on Dec 3, 2014 in Best of The Goddess, Cancer Goddess, Cancer Healing, Goddesslicious | 4 comments

Six weeks ago there was a badass biggish tumor and a wee little one. Now, not only did the two tumors NOT reduce in size, but the biggish one is more defined than six weeks ago. And they are joined by a third tumor that just popped up — also pretty big — since six weeks ago. Tumor party!

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The Marshmallow Test, Life, and Cancer

Posted by on Oct 21, 2014 in Cancer Goddess, Cancer Healing, Goddesslicious | 5 comments

Hello my lovelies, I’m on my way this week to the hospital for a brain MRI. Today is Day Twelve of a massive headache that won’t go away no matter what pain medicine I throw at it, and this is a very bad sign for someone who’s had brain tumors. Couple the headache with other signs I’m experiencing and there is, ahem, strong concern  — one level below freak-out mode. This was probably preventable. My Kahuna and I know what to do and how to do it to get through cancer....

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Robin Williams and Divine Timing

Posted by on Aug 15, 2014 in Best of The Goddess, Death + Dying, Goddesslicious | 2 comments

A couple of nights ago I was still seeing Robin Williams links and mentions in my Facebook news feed, so I got to wondering. Why did he do it? Why did he end his life THAT WAY on THAT DAY? Why not next week? Or next year? Why suicide? Why not an accident? Cancer? Why did he not live out his life and die an old man, well-lived?

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