On July 28, 2012 my soulmate Kahuna drove me to the ER after 3 days of abdominal pain, crushing fatigue, and nausea. I thought it was appendicitis. By the end of the day, we knew differently. Cancer. Stage IV melanoma that had spread to my lymph nodes and brain.
Doctors said I had only months to live.
This could have been a crushing diagnosis. Doctors offer little in the way of medical treatments — let alone cures — for advanced melanoma patients. No. It was time to take my life into my own hands. This is my opportunity to radically change my life for the better — and become healthier and happier than ever. Life changed. Out went salt, sugar, wine, and processed foods. In came truckloads of fresh organic vegetables and fruits. Our war on cancer had begun.
We chose these therapies and treatments because they offer solid science and clinical results. You’ll see also that some choices I made just because they felt right. I believe it’s important to trust one’s inner wisdom. Our bodies are amazing. Mine only needs the chance to do what it already knows how to do — heal and thrive. I believe this program gives me that chance.
[Note: below are the main parts of my program. Details about my program, cancer-healing in general and our approach in particular, dosages, and the costs of my protocols are available at my soulmate Kahuna's website The Paradox Cure.]
What is it? Organic high-potassium vegan nutritional therapy. Grueling regimen — for AT LEAST TWO YEARS — of 12 fresh vegetable and fruit juices every day plus cooked organic meals and boatloads of supplements. Detoxification with 5 coffee enemas a day.
What does it do? Super-boosts the immune system to help my body do what it is designed to do. 13 daily juices alkalize and flood my body with concentrated nutrition every hour while the coffee enemas support the liver in detoxing and breaking up my tumors. Masses of supplements support the pancreas, liver, and overall function of all organs. The whole thing is neatly designed to work seamlessly to jump start my body’s inherent wisdom.
Why did I choose it? Gerson Therapy has been around for decades and has a particularly good track record healing melanoma. It’s gentle to the body, holistic, and safe. Side effects are minimal. This was my best chance, I thought, for winning cancer.
Gerson Update: I did the full Gerson thing for about 8 months. I never felt that the foods in the program were exactly right for me, so in mid-May 2013 I changed my eating dramatically to align with my metabolic profile in conjunction with Functional Diagnostic Nutrition. I’m still juicing but juicing different veggies than Gerson calls for. I still add tons of potassium to my juices and I still do coffee enemas and I still take all the Gerson-proscribed supplements (pancreatic enzymes, acid for digestion, niacin, thyroid, Lugol’s solution) and I still avoid salt, sugar, alcohol, and everything processed.
Functional Diagnostic Nutrition (FDN)
What is it? A way of eating the right fuel combination (protein, fats, and carbs) for my individual metabolism. No two bodies are the same, and no two diets work the same for everyone. Eating the foods that are right for me will help me heal and become stronger and will give my body what it needs to do the massive job of healing that it needs to do. FDN is about getting my body back in balance. Kahuna and I consulted with the fantastic Sarah Rattray, who gifted her time and expertise to us. Big gift.
What does it do? FDN is also about testing to find out what foods to eat and which to avoid, plus what supplements are needed to get back in balance again. The right diet helps you feel good, heal, and have energy to do what you need to do. MOst of us don’t eat what our bodies really need. If you’re in balance, no more cravings! No more energy dips in the afternoons. No more crazy starving or feeling bloated. It’s kind of magical….
Why did I choose it? I never felt that the carb-heavy foods on Gerson were right for me. I need more protein and more variety. After 8 months of drinking 9 daily juices containing apples, now I am reactive to apples! So, switching to eating the foods exactly right for me and in the correct proportions of protein, fats, and carbs just seemed like a no-brainer.
What is it? Immunotherapy. Extract of European mistletoe, developed for use in helping heal cancer in 1920 by Rudolf Steiner. I inject myself with this solution every other day.
What does it do? Mistletoe is a poison, but in very small amounts it stimulates the body’s immune system to kill cancer cells and shrink tumors. Treatment lasts months to years.
Why did I choose it? I read encouraging statistics about Iscador. I believe in anthroposophical medicine (Rudolf Steiner). Side effects are bearable (pain/swelling/redness at injection site, body temperature fluctuations, headaches). It felt right to me.
Vitamin C IVs
What is it? 50g Vitamin C in 500ml sterile water every 3-4 days, given intravenously.
What does it do? Cytotoxin — this is nature’s chemotherapy! Vitamin C creates H2O2 that kills cancer cells via oxidative stress. high-dose Vitamin C is also thought to improve quality of life by reducing severity of symptoms like fatigue, nausea/vomiting, pain, and appetite loss. I usually feel better the next day.
Why did I choose it? Safe. Simple. Effective. Duh.
Low Dose Naltrexone (LDN)
What is it? 4.5mg LDN in capsule form taken at bedtime.
What does it do? Stimulates the body’s immune system and activates endorphins and enkephalin levels by blocking the tumors’ opioid receptors and perhaps induce apoptosis (cancer cell death). In addition, it is believed that they act to increase natural killer cells and other healthy immune defenses against cancer. Effective for a variety of diseased including HIV/AIDS, MS, fibromyalgia, and Crohn’s Disease.
Why did I choose it? Safe. Clinically effective. Minimal to none negative side effects and potential positive side effects of increased sense of well-being.
Pau d’Arco Tea
What is it? Tea made from the the inner bark of the South American Tabebuia Avellanedae or Tabebuia Impetiginosa (Taheebo) tree. Pau d’Arco Tea has been used for many centuries by the Indio tribes of South America.
What does it do? Medical practioners in South America have used Pau D’Arco Tea as a primary treatment for cancer for decades. It inhibits cancer growth and even kills cancer cells.
Why did I choose it? I believe in the healing powers of herbs.
Rick Simpson Oil
What is it? Cannabis oil. Hemp oil. Cooked-down mary jane. I eat a small amount before bed, about the size of two cooked grains of rice.
What does it do? Cannabinoids inhibit tumor growth (see studies here). Raises melatonin levels and promotes full body healing. Tastes terrible. Helps ease pain. Bonus: I sleep like a baby. A baby who sleeps all night.
Why did I choose it? Side effects nil. Possibly very effective. It felt right.
Oom Yung Doe
What is it? 8 martial arts styles taught as one. This isn’t all kicking and punching! Rather, it’s a complete system of working with body and mind to become a better person. It’s a complete path for mental and physical development and well-being and full conscious development as a human being.
What does it do? Opens energy channels. Promotes strength and flexibility. Floods the body with oxygen. Connects mind and body. Helps you go from meh to awesome.
Why did I choose it? In 2010 I saw videos of experienced Oom Yung Doe students and saw how the energy moved through their bodies. I had never seen anyone move this way. I wanted that for myself! Luckily I had been practicing for over a year when the Stage 4 diagnosis came, so I changed my practice to one that builds my system and works with energy channels to boost my internal energy and help my body heal itself.
Environmental Toxin Removal
What is it? Reduced exposure to harmful chemicals of all kinds. Purified water. No plastics. No makeup (well, a little and only occasionally). Toiletries (shampoo, toothpaste) free from chemicals and perfumes. Soaps and detergents as chemical-free as possible. Nothing with added fragrance.
What does it do? In our world we are all constantly bombarded with toxic chemicals and substances. Eating whole, organic, chemical-free food is one thing and helps a great deal, but what about water? Air? Everything I come in contact with? It was essential to remove as much toxic burden as I could, to stress my body as little as possible and support its healing.
Why did I choose it? I’ve lived a low-chemical life for years but stepped it up even more for this program, partly because I’m way more sensitive now and partly because it makes so much sense.
Gamma Knife Stereotactic Radiotherapy
What is it? Targeted dose of gamma radiation delivered with surgical precision to the cancer that spread to my brain.
What does it do? Kills everything in its path. Because this therapy is so targeted and precise, we could be confident that it only would kill cancer cells, not surrounding brain tissue.
Why did I choose it? Buy time. Cancer in the brain is super serious. I knew I had a low chance to survive if it was left alone. Because of the blood-brain barrier, it was unclear whether my other holistic therapies would heal the two tumors in my brain in time, or at all. Gamma Knife was a no-brainer (haha).
Examine and Release Old Harmful Beliefs
What is it? Our reality is created from our beliefs. We unwittingly assume beliefs about the world and how it works from the moment we are born, often taking on beliefs from our parents and caregivers. Most of us go through our lives not knowing that we have choice in how our world looks and feels. I believe that my cancer originated in part from my beliefs.
What does it do? Once I opened to the idea that everything I hold to be true isn’t actually True — that I just believe it to be true — then I became free to dig deep and uncover beliefs I hold about myself, other people, my life, and the world in general that haven’t served me very well. Once I uncover a belief, I can choose to have a different belief instead. Change enough beliefs and my experience of life, myself, and the world will change as well. That’s the theory.
Why did I choose it? It kind of chose me. I feel like crap most of the time. I spend a lot of time doing not a whole hell of a lot, which leaves me a lot of time to think. I think a lot about how I got here, the choices I made up to this moment, and the kind of life I want to have. Examining my beliefs seemed second nature to my healing experience. I doubt I’ll ever stop the process of looking at my beliefs and releasing the ones that no longer serve me.
Energy Healing + Visualization
What is it? I’m a Reiki master and developed a unique energy healing modality called Soul Connection. But so what? I don’t have the energy to do healing on myself right now. Friends — powerful energy healers and medical intuitives — have graciously and generously offered their time and expertise to help me. They work with me at a distance once a week. Plus, people all over the world send me thoughts, prayers, and hopes for healing every day. I also meditate and do visualizations several times a week.
What does it do? To be honest, I don’t know. We don’t yet have ways of measuring this kind of thing. But I can tell you that I feel loved, and love is a powerful healer. Plus? My friends report things they see in my body that correlate with aches and pains and lumps and bumps, with no way of knowing about them. That certainly feels “real” to me!
Why did I choose it? I’d be a fool not to. Just because the medical community doesn’t have an adequate method of measuring such tools doesn’t mean they do nothing. I have full belief in spontaneous healing and seemingly miraculous cures.
I’m doing many more things — B-12 injections, superfoods, targeted mushroom extracts, resveratrol, chlorella, krill oil, royal jelly, flax oil, CoQ10, oxygen therapy, hydrotherapy, fresh air and sunlight.
So far, my soulmate Kahuna and I are doing this entire program pretty much by ourselves. And when I say “by ourselves” I mean it’s mostly Kahuna! When I said “grueling regimen,” I meant it! Gerson Therapy alone is a FULL TIME JOB. Most people who do this have to hire help. We need to hire help, but lack the money.